Polly Love Sands

( PollyLove )

( Warded Private )

Some fucking victory My feet hurt. I don't wanna be here no more. I want Vicks ba I want Ritchie to be ok This sucks.

[Warded to Vicky]

Hey Vicks, I know we ain't been the closest yearmates, but something happened what I wanna tell someone about, and aside of Ritchie, you're one of my favorite persons, so I figured I'd tell you...leastwise if that's alright with you.

( Private )

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How long can people keep having bad shit happen to them and the people around them before they just become numb? Is it okay to just feel tired and numb instead of sad?

[Warded to Sasha Roper]

I just wanted to say thanks. For what you did at the auction, I mean. You're nicer and sweeter'n most people deserve to have someone be nice and sweet to them.

[Warded to George Weasley]

Thanks for saving my life. I really fucking hate chairs now. Didn't you do something with the chandelier?

[MWP Participants, minus Slytherins]

I don't even wanna think about where they been pulling splinters of chair outta me. It's a fucking damn shame some people (cough, cough, Death Eaters, cough) got such boring lives what can't be spiced up by nothing but ruining everyone else's fun. Maybe they oughta take up something like Parcheesi so they won't have such pathetic lives.

[Warded to MWP participants, minus Slytherins]

I just wanna say I'm real sorry for losing my shit freaking out yesterday. I shoulda warded the entry to keep Death Eaters from seeing it, but I couldn't think straight cause Ritchie and his dad's all I got left besides Nicky, and I'm really fucking scared of losing him. But it don't matter how scared I been, I shouldn't've been as nasty as I were, and I'm sorry if I offended anyone.

Except Parkinson.

Ritchie's doing better I think, but he's still gotta stay here a while longer on account of him not being completely better yet. I know he'd love visitors, and the nurses and shi and people say it's okay. Vicks, I still think you should come and read to him. I'm sure he can hear, even if he ain't awake yet.

Ritchie's in the hospital. They said there was too much painkillers in his system. He were He weren't breathing and he fell down, but he's alive and they say he's gonna be better, but he ain't leaving the hospital for a long time. Leastwise a couple days. They said he's gotta detox or some shit. I dunno what's gonna happen then, but that's where he is.

I'm at the hospital too, and I ain't leaving. I dunno if he can get visitors yet, but if people come and ask, they might say yes.

So anyone what ain't signed up for the auction should go and do that now, cause it's gonna be real fun, looks like, and it's for charity for orphans. And folks can bid on the blokes they fancy and shit, and it'll be a fucking ace time...I think everyone should do it. I mean, how the fuck can you not want to do this? It's all fun and shit, and anyway, all the money's going to charity, so seriously? Anyone who's being a wet blanket about it should get over themselves and do it.

And on a non-auction note, I feel a helluva lot better.

I feel like shite, but Ron's journal writing's funny enough to make me feel at least emotionally not like shite. So there you go, good job Ron.

I fucking hate being sick.

Right, so here's what I think about them owls and shit.

I think someone, whatever person's sending the owls and shit, is desperate for attention and so on. It's probably someone what was prolly all powerful in the old ministry and now ain't got no one paying any attention to him or nothing, so he feels like he oughta do something to get people to be like "Oh hey, he still exists!" and that thing is sending dead owls to people with horror story messages attached because he's a dumbass. And then we're all playing into his stupid little game by getting all crazy about it. Even I'm playing into that game, how fucking sick is that? So I figure, we should just all pay attention to something else, no matter what other sick stuff this asshole does, and then he'll get bored and move onto, like, setting ants on fire with his wand or sommat.

SO. A good thing to talk about is that this coming school year's gonna be brilliant. Agree/disagree?

[Ritchie-Ritch]

I'm thinking too much. I think I need to get out, like, out of the house and out. And do something. Do you think we can get out and do something tonight, you know, you and me? I don't even care what, I just need a distraction. Maybe an alcoholic distraction, I dunno. And I know it ain't Monday yet, but fuck me, I really need to get my mind off shit.

[Private]

It don't make sense for me to feel like this. Well, I mean, it do, but I ain't felt like this all along until lately. I guess that's why they been making us do work, cause it's distracting from the shit. And life with Ritchie's a fuckton better for me and Nicky than life with Mum in Knockturn ever was, but

Damnit, she was my mum, and I miss her. And I don't even wanna be writing this sort of soft pussy shit in here, cause it ain't like I'm the only one what's lost, but I gotta right to feel this way, yeah? Maybe other folks is already over it or something, but I can't get over it, and maybe that's something what's wrong with me, but Nicky still cries at night and maybe I don't want to get over it anytime soon.

I want that fucking day off.

You know, rebuilding Hogwarts really ain't that bad. It ain't really manual labour, see, cause yeah, it's out in the hot sun and shit, but we're levitating pretty much all the boulders and rocks and everything, so it's not like we're actually lifting the stuff ourselves. And being out in the sun is a helluva lot better than being somewhere damp and cold. Leastwise, we're getting all tan and lots of vitamins and shit, and able to enjoy the summer. I think we should organize a big swim in the lake next breaktime, yeah?

I also am starting to think that people what's complaining about their jobs and shit is being disrespectful to people what got real things to complain about, like the ones what lost families and jobs and homes. They'd prolly be fucking grateful for a chance like we got to do stuff to get their minds off shit. I know I am

[Private]

It's shit leaving Nicky by himself now...what if he starts thinking everyone's gonna leave him or something like that? I mean, I know he's a smart kid and all, but he's still just a kid, and what if he

Godric, this whole thing is shite. At least I'm working at Hogwarts, which ain't so bad, all things considered. It's outside, it's warm, and it's really doing something, at least I hope. I dunno, though. Maybe I'll hate it by tomorrow.

I miss he

[/Private]

So! Who else is on the Hogwarts team? I think we should have T-shirts or some shit.

It'd also be nice to get paid for this, since some of us lost everything and didn't do nothing wrong to do so, but that's another matter entirely, yeah?

What the fucking fuck

Well. Shit. I guess this makes me and Nicky wards of the fucking state, now don't it?

So is there gonna be some sort of memorials for them what died in the battle? There's gotta be, right? I didn't know a lot of them folks, but it'd be good to give Demelza a better send-off than the one she got from that cunt what did her in. And anyways, isn't that what folks usually do when there's tragedies and shit? Memorials?

Haven't heard from Mum yet and Nicky's been a fucking mess since I got back from Mungo's. I should've known better than to leave him off without someone to watch him. I dunno what he did when there was battle things going on...

[Warded to Gryffindors]

I don't know if the rest of you lot heard, but Demelza's gone too. She and me got sneaked up on by some twat and the coward didn't even give her a chance to fight back. I dunno what happened to him, if someone offed him or something, but if not, he ain't gonna have no kids, I made sure of that.

I heard about Ritchie which fucking sucks. Is everyone else alright?

Okay, what the fucking fuck? Yeah, I wanted to know why the fuck we had to sleep in sleeping bags last night, and yeah, I was kind of pissed about it, but WHY CAN'T I FUCKING TALK TODAY? It ain't like I'm gonna go leading a protest against sleeping bags or some shit like that, so what the fuck?

Not that this year's exactly been the pinnacle of my academic career (fuck, writing that made me feel like some snotty Ravenclaw), but I'm damn glad to be back at Hogwarts and in an actual bed without hearing bargoers doing fuck-all at Merlin-knows-when in the morning downstairs from me. Hot food at mealtimes, less of a threat of being nibbled on by a hag or vampire, that sort of shit. Nicky's glad to be back, too...long as he keeps his nose clean, this place's better than Knockturn any day, yeah?

ANYWAY. Seems people wants a turn for comedy now, but all the jokes I know ain't appropriate for a school environment or people with delicate sensibilities or whatever, which is a damned shame cause they're funny. And they're not about dead Muggles, neither, so there's no insensitivity there. Well. Except if you're uncomfortable with jokes about fucking. Then there's some insensitivity, what's why I'm not gonna write them here, cause I ain't insensitive.

Well, so much for take your kids to work day, yeah? It ain't really surprising that Mum's still gone, with all the shit going on & everything. Nicky's kinda a wreck about it, but that's to be expected. I mean, fuck, he's only 12. It ain't like he's gotten a chance to learn to be on his own and shit.

But yeah, take your kids to work day. I wonder if that'll work out well here on the Alley. I mean, not like there's really much businesses of repute here anyway, but it'd still be awkward for the kids of the owners of the shops around here to have to see how crowded the streets is lately or be staring down a hag or something. If nothing else, today'll be interesting.